Crazy

I actually tried googling "Why do I attract crazy people?"

Yep, nothing helpful.

Annoying. Amusing. A little creepy. But definitely NOT helpful.

I'm seriously open to suggestions here.

WHY do crazy people flock to me like magnets?

We aren't talking a little weird, or quirky, or strange.

I'm talking like 2 seconds away from a psychiatric hospital kind of crazy.

And it's not just guys I date. It's bosses, acquaintances, random people who feel the need to become strangely obsessed with me and then subsequently go nuts.

W.T.F.

My lifetime friends can confirm that this has been happening since I was about 14, so this is definitely a repeating pattern. And one I seriously need to break.

So I'm asking, sincerely, what is it about me that attracts this kind of crazy?

Aside from locking myself in a padded cell, I'm going to continue to have these problems.

So it needs to be fixed. Soon.

Livin' La Vida Loca...

Let me just take a moment to say:

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, deep breath. I'm starting to feel better.

I am the most stressed out I've EVER been. And that includes the times while I was going through a divorce AND randomly moving to Texas.

Life is crazy. Not that I'm complaining. It's crazy in a good way. But I've got so many balls in the air that I'm going nuts making sure they don't go flying everywhere or smack me in the face.

I am in my last semester of school. At least for this degree. Can I just say how freakin' excited I am?

I ordered my graduation invitations and cap & gown yesterday. I feel like jumping up and down like a little kid. I never thought I'd get here.

But I gotta say - 60 credit hours in 10 months is pretty badass. Keeping a 4.0 while pulling that off is seriously badass. Just sayin'...

Ok, I'm done bragging. Because seriously, the classes I'm taking this semester are kicking.my.ass. I'm gonna be lucky to hang on to that 4.0 til the end. Cuz it's rough.

On top of this - I have to move on by March 15th.

This is an improvement though.

Because at first it was February 15th, then it was March 1st. If I had to move in 5 days, I would shoot myself. Spring Break is waaaay better for moving. Thank God.

 On top of all this, I have a seriously important test on March 4th. Like a life changing, career deciding, seriously important test. So I need to study. Actually, I should have been studying for the past 3-4 months. But I suppose a week will have to do.

Oh, and on top of that - I've got this little thing I'm doing...

I'm pledging to a coed business fraternity.

Yes. I'm serious. This 27 year old mother of 2 boys is pledging a fraternity. (Pauses for laughter)

Crazy, right? Probably. But it's something I really want to do. And I make a point to meet my goals. Soo...

Plus, I get to play softball with them. Bonus. :)

But yea, I'm a little busy.

But I'm coming up for breath every once in a while. And when I do, I promise to say hi!

XOXO

I've Figured Out Why I'm Crazy

I consider myself a fairly reasonable person.

And pretty smart. And logical.

For the most part, I think like a guy.

I analyze, look at the facts, and make decisions (usually) based on what makes the most logical sense.

Unless we are talking about relationships.

When it comes to relationships, apparently I am a total dummy.

So I've decided to step back and analyze the facts. And I've come to a completely logical conclusion -

Men make me CRAZY.

I go from my normal, logical, happy self to wanting to KILL someone in seconds flat around them.

Seriously.

It's like that huge magnet thing that completely disrupts the polarity of anything it gets near.

Men are my magnet. They make me NUTS.

I can be completely unemotional, totally analytical, and amazing intelligent, and then one of them shows up and it all flies out the window.

I REFUSE TO LET THEM MAKE ME CRAZY ANYMORE.

Great goal huh? Any ideas on a strategy that gets me there?

The truth is, though, I LIKE being levelheaded and calm and not all in emotional turmoil. It's waaaay easier.

So all these nutcases that come around me and make me crazy need to
GO AWAY!!!