So, here's the thing I've discovered over the past few months of heartbreak, divorce proceedings, craziness, loss, adventure, learning, growing, and becoming:
The heart wants what it wants.
No matter how bad of an idea it may be. No matter how much it may hurt. No matter that logic and reason and everyone with any sense advises against it.
The heart is stupid. It is also powerful. And full of hope.
You can't force it to want, or not want, something. You can't sway it with facts. You really can't do shit about it except either follow it or wait it out.
Either way, it could hurt.
Either way, it could end badly.
Either way, you may not end up where you want to be.
Ultimately, life is a gamble. Love is a gamble. Relationships are a gamble.
No one can guarantee how anything is going to turn out.
So the best you can do is try to figure out the path that will make you the most complete, and then follow it with everything that you have.
No one can tell you what that is. People can give advice, and support, and help you navigate. But ultimately only YOU are response for living YOUR life.
So choose wisely.