Exactly What I Need

We all know that I'm not big into the God thing lately. However, I am a firm believer that he puts the exact people in your life that you need.

Today, that was proven.

Today sucked. Seeeriously sucked. I was ready to crawl under the table and cry, kind of sucked.

And I did cry (not under a table, but if you know me at all, you know this is a big deal).

But I got through it. And not alone.

See, I have some amazing friends. And somehow, they just knew what I needed in order to not fall to pieces today.

I have my BFF, who ALWAYS knows the right things to say and managed to make me smile through my tears via Facebook posts.

Then, I had a friend come through for me last minute with my kiddos, without ever being asked.

As I drove home from class tonight, I was dreading spending the evening alone with my thoughts and a house in shambles. But I walk in the door to find friends who not only helped out with the kiddos but cleaned the house and kept me company.

So instead of feeling completely alone and overwhelmed and helpless, I got to smile and laugh and forget about everything for a while. (And I got a clean house - which in itself is a small miracle)

So really, these people came through for me when I needed them most. And that's not a coincidence.

I just hope that I can do the same for them or someone else, when they need a friend.

Letting Go

If it's easy to let it go, you probably shouldn't have held onto it for so long.

Unfortunately, the reverse of that is not always true.

Just because some things are hard to let go of doesn't mean that you shouldn't do it anyway.

It's hard for an addict to put down the crack, but it's probably definitely in his best interest.

Take me, for example... I spend so much time needing to be validated that I allowed my self-worth to be determined by someone who probably shouldn't be allowed to decide what movie to watch. I got so caught up in holding onto a status quo, that I forgot to check if that status quo was good, or even healthy, for me.

I just wanted stability, for once in my life. Not "the one" true love, not a fairytale ending, not some impossible dream. Just stability. The irony is that I was searching for it from arguably the most unstable person I've ever known.

So for as smart as I am, I become a complete idiot when it comes to relationships.

However, I am pretty sure of one thing...

That stability I wanted so badly? I have it. By being able to walk through this unscathed, and pick up the pieces that someone attempted (unsuccessfully) to shatter, I have created my OWN stability.

Call me cocky, but that's my strongest asset... the ability to manage to always make it through okay. Without mental breakdowns or total destruction or mass casualty. That, my friends, is stability.

Not competely what I'm looking for but, right now, I'll take it.

Letting go is easy... that says a LOT

Here's To Us

Well, it's about time I get back to the things I love, isn't it?

Like laying in my super comfy bed and enjoying a glass of fabulously sweet wine after a very nice evening filled with laughter and fun.

Life is too short to be wasted on things that don't matter. Life is too short to be unhappy. And life is waaaay too short to settle for less than what you want.

So this is me, doing what I want... Taking in a deep breath, and letting out a sigh of relief.

Guess what? In less than 2 weeks, I will have completed a goal that has haunted me for 10 years... I will officially have a Masters Degree in Accounting.

I have a job lined up, a house picked out, and the whole world in front of me.

The last 2 years have been tough. Tougher than I thought they'd be. But they were good for memories made, the small victories, and the lessons learned. The sacrifices were hard. The choices were tough. But they were worth it. When I reflect on them, I'll appreciate them for what they were...

I certainly don't want to go back though. Life is about moving forward. It's about growing, and changing, and making your tomorrow better than your yesterday.

And trust me, I know for a FACT tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

So, here's to those with the courage to do what it takes to follow their dreams.

Here's to those with the strength to wait for what they deserve instead of settling for what's in front of them.

And here's to those who believe that their tomorrows will be better than their yesterdays.

Because that's what makes it all worth it.