Decorating My Soul: May 2010

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Thought I Would Share...

I came across this website. I normally don't promote anything. Ever. But I was totally impressed and thought I would share. Check it out...

RIGHT HERE

Enjoy :)

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

My Feel Good List...

For those downer days when I need to remember all the good that life has to offer - here is my "Things I Heart" list...

Colorado Sunrises
Tanning Beds
Dr. Pepper and Mountain Dew - together
Super fast Mustangs
Slumber parties with best friends
Chocolate covered gummy bears, or strawberries, or pretty much anything dipped in chocolate :)
Windows down, music blaring weather
Beaches
Capris
Sleeping in
5 Hour Energy
Live Concerts
Taking pictures and creating memories
Riding a motorcycle at 100 + MPH
Travelling to exotic places
Softball
Christmas
Scary Movies
White water rafting
Massages
Flip flops
Cuddling with a sleeping child
Internet on cell phones
Solving complicated math problems (I know, weird)
Country music
Surprises
Laying outside and watching the stars at night
Sunday afternoon naps
Sincere "I love you"s
Friends that you can pick up where you left off with, no matter how much time has passed
Homemade vanilla icecream
Beer Olympics
Long, hot bubble baths
Competition (of pretty much any kind)
Road trips
Skiing
Valet Parking (although watching them try to park my truck is hilarious!)
GPS
Army Wives
Listening to my babies giggle
Winning
Photo Shoots
Cuddling
Dancing in public
Rodeos
Adrenaline Rushes
Margaritas (Preferably mine, but Taco Cabana is good too)
Shooting guns
Spontaneity
Playing guitar
Cold Beer
Coming home to a perfectly clean and organized house
Muddin'
Cheesecake
Being spoiled
Smooth, just shaved legs
ITunes
Babies that I can love on and give back
Fancy Restaurants
Movie Nights
Trying new things
Being snowed in at the cabin in the mountains
Big Trucks
No traffic commutes
Happy Endings

What about you? What do you love?

Apparently, I am incapable of being content with stability. The same routine day in and day out just isn't enough for me. It was a sunny day in August when I packed up my belongings and my children and moved, literally overnight, to Texas from Colorado. It was a whirlwind change, and one of the best decisions I've ever made. I eventually landed in Houston where, after a lot of struggles, I now have a stable, decent paying job, a house of my own, a great daycare, an amazing church, good friends, and a fairly predictable life.

Sooo... where does that leave me?

Time for change. Again.

My last day at my job will be next Friday. I start school June 7th. I am moving 3 hours away.

I have no house.

No job.

No friends.

No stability.

And yet, I'm doing it anyway.

Awesome.

Yes, I am completely freaking out. Yes, the OCD part of me is telling me that this is the worst idea I have ever had and I need to stop right now and go back to the comfort of my stability. Yes, I'm scared that things aren't going to work out and I'm going to end up homeless and penniless. Yes, I'm concerned about the boys going through yet another major change in their young lives. Yes, yes, yes. I've considered it all. And worried about it all. Trust me.

But I'm doing it anyway.

I'm doing it because I believe that life should be an adventure. That it should be lived. That we should always be striving for the next goal, instead of complacently staying where we are.

Don't get me wrong, stability is a good thing. A comfortable, secure, healthy environment is incredibly important, especially for children. However, there is a difference between security and settling.

I don't want to settle. I don't want to feel regret over the things I haven't done. I want to push and grow and learn and experience and know that I've done the best that I could.

Currently, I'm not doing that. Right now, I'm settling. I have a job that, while it pays the bills and looks good on a resume, makes me miserable and unhappy and short and exhausted. I want to do more. I want to feel challenged. I want to pursue dreams. I want to do bigger things. Better things. Great things. I want to give my boys a life they love and a mother they can be proud of. I want them to see that settling for anything less than their best isn't what it's all about. I want them to know that it is worth the work, sacrifice, and hard choices to pursue their dreams. I want them to know that because of me.

So, this is the next step in accomplishing that. It's time to throw caution to the wind and just jump. I have a knack for landing on my feet. I'll be fine. I'm sure it will be rough for a while. I'm sure there will be moments when I will question why I chose to do this. But I also strongly believe that in the end, this will be exactly what I needed.

No one ever promised it would be easy, they only said it would be worth it.